Burn It Down

I feel like I'm getting to the point to where I'm completely unsatisfied

I've been living for other people for so long and I'm so tired

It's like, I'm looking at my younger self and thinking

It was a solid effort honey, 

But it's time to go to bed

Wasn't that a cute try?

I want to just burn it all down and start over

But that doesn't seem new to me either

Unsatisfied, running, chasing 

Something

I don't know what 

Maybe just feeling at ease?

Like if I fall something or someone will catch me

Like I'm living

I used to quote 

The rarest thing in the world is to live

Most people exist

But look what I've been doing

Getting by

Surviving

I have moments where I feel the universe’s heartbeat and it is wonderful

But then I'm alone again '

How do I convince myself to keep going 

Or to change

I'm always halfway

I feel like I could've been so much better