3 More Months

Sometimes

I wonder if all this

Is for someone else's benefit.

An anecdote

That brings someone else peace

Or change

And I

Am a shade to a story

That I don't get to write

Swept along 

In a river of sorrow

And sleepless nights

Between

Begging for death

And praying for another tomorrow

How is a heart to keep beating?

How is a heart to keep healing?

I'm shattered 

In a million pieces 

And over what?

Things that will never love me back.

Money friends travel living life to t he fullest

It will never love me back.

Hold it in 

Hold it in

Keep it together

Three more months

Then you'll know what the future brings

Then you'll know if you'll always feel this way

But three months and another three

It's still the same

It'll never change